Ellis’ Second Stillbirthday

Today was magical, bittersweet, joyful, peaceful, tearful, and gentle.

Hunter and I drove to the Texas Hill Country to visit Enchanted Rock, where we spread some of Ellis’ ashes shortly after he was stillborn. It was so special to take his little brother in my belly there with us.

On our way back home a friend sent us a message to check out the Google homepage—today it’s featuring Israel Kamakawiw’ole’s on 61st birthday with an animated version of his song “Somewhere Over the Rainbow.” I sat in the car and cried big fat cathartic tears while listening to it.

Then, as we pulled up to our house, we discovered our driveway had been covered in sidewalk chalk rainbow messages for Ellis. It just felt too perfect—like his spirit was so absolutely present.

All day long we received messages, flowers, cards, and gifts. I just can’t even describe how much my heart is overflowing.

This is a day I will remember forever—it was the first time I felt like Ellis’ birthday was truly a celebration of his life and spirit.

Thank you to everyone who helped carry us through our darkest grief and to those of you who continue to nurture Ellis’ spirit and our hearts. I am overwhelmed by your compassion, generosity, creativity, and love.