In this episode my husband, Hunter, and I reflect on the birth of our rainbow baby, Jonas.
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This episode is part two of my conversation with Rachel George focusing on her book “Grieve, Create, Believe: Process Your Loss with Intention and Truth” and her self-publishing journey.
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This episode features my conversation with Rachel George and her story of miscarriage, infant loss, adoption, and the recent birth of another baby.
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In this episode I reflect on what it was like to face and surpass several significant milestones in the third trimester of my current experience of pregnancy after loss.
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I can’t believe I’m finally entering my third trimester of pregnancy. In this episode I talk about managing my expectations and fears, dealing with aches and pains and prioritizing self-care, seeing a chiropractor, planning a drive-by baby shower and building a baby registry, the importance of kick counting, and deciding on a name for our baby.
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This episode is a special conversation with my husband, Hunter, as we check in with each other a little over halfway through our current experience of pregnancy after loss.
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This episode is an update during week 20 of my current pregnancy and is focused on issues around sleep and pregnancy. I talk about my mid-pregnancy anatomy scan and questions I had for my perinatal specialist about the topic of sleeping on your side during pregnancy.
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I talk about my decision whether or not to use an at-home doppler, learning how to be a better advocate for myself at prenatal visits during pregnancy after loss, and consulting with several doctors about VBAC vs repeat cesarean and what we ended up deciding. I also share what Ellis’ second stillbirthday was like and how we’ve started to connect more with our rainbow baby—I’m feeling him kick everyday now.
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This is a very special episode featuring my conversation with Alissa Christensen, who’s baby Anna was stillborn two years ago today—May 20, 2018, the same day as my baby Ellis. She’s the only other loss mom I’ve met who’s baby shares that birthday.
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A special bonus episode for Mother’s Day because I know that this is often a complicated holiday for mothers who have lost babies.
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This episode is my conversation with Jenn Hepton, a certified grief and life coach who has walked through much hardship on her journey to a rainbow baby.
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This episode is a documentation of weeks 10 and 11 of my pregnancy including my first ultrasound back with my regular OB and also my first visit with a perinatal specialist.
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A documentation of weeks eight and nine of my pregnancy including our weekly ultrasound results and graduating from our fertility clinic.
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A recap of weeks 4-7 of my pregnancy, which includes cultivating peace and coping with anxiety leading up to our first ultrasound and the onset of the COVID-19 pandemic.
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A documentation of my two week wait after our recent second frozen embryo transfer. I talk about what the transfer was like and give a day by day account of my experience leading up to our pregnancy testing.
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Shannon Pike shares honestly and articulately about her relationship to pain, joy, fear, and anxiety after the stillbirth of her first daughter Marie and the miscarriage of her twins, and how she was able to stay present while pregnant with her rainbow baby.
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In the episode I give an update on our IVF journey and share some of the most common comments I’ve received and how they’ve made me feel. I talk about how I’ve responded to them and my best practices for communicating during pregnancy loss, grief, and trying to conceive.
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This episode tells the story of Jess’ adopted rainbow baby, Shiloh. Jess and her family were called to adoption several years ago, which took them on a long journey of waiting, roadblocks, and heartache. This is another incredible story that exemplifies the power of choosing love.
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In this episode Hunter and I talk about our IVF egg retrieval and what it was like to go through the stimulation phase of the our IVF cycle. Over the last 12 days I’ve given myself a total of 56 injections, went to six acupuncture sessions, and had four blood draws, so I’ve felt a little like a voo doo doll. I’m so grateful to say that everything went really smoothly for us and I felt good, physically and emotionally, through the entire process. Listen in to hear how many eggs we had retrieved and what’s next for us.
This episode is my conversation with Jess Lowry, who’s the family minister at the church where I grew up in San Antonio, Texas. Our stories collided when Jess showed up for me at the hospital the night Ellis was stillborn and ended up baptizing him. Since then, Jess and I’ve developed a deep friendship as she began to share her own story of pregnancy loss with me, which includes seven miscarriages, the stillbirth of her first rainbow baby Ava, and three more rainbow babies, including an adopted little girl.
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